Postpartum Anxiety

I was undone by postpartum anxiety after my first. I had always struggled with OCD. Here’s an example other than the common germ or counting or checking symptoms I also had. I would have a scary intrusive thought and think about it day, night, in my dreams, every waking moment against my will. I would pray to stop having scary thoughts and try to worship and praise and it was so defeating and consuming. for 16 months I struggled. I was vacationing in the PNW and trying out a church in washington state. While the worship music played I prayed to God and told him truthfully that I feel hopeless I’ll ever recover. Suddenly the worship leader came off the stage middle of the song. I hadn’t seen anyone do this at this church the other few times. She walked right up to me and said she was going to pray for me. She then told me things no stranger would know about me or my family. Very specific and I knew the Holy Spirit had told her. She prayed against the anxiety and fears. I left feeling okay but it was later that day I was in the car looking out the window and I felt the spirit of fear leave. It just went away after 16 months of doing everything in my power. Finally when I gave it up, God said “let me heal you.”